If you have ever experienced a major life altering event, in particular one that reminds you of your mortality, or the shear unpredictability of life and loss, you can likely relate to the questions—and priorities—often raised. It is humbling—jostling—to one’s “comfort,” and often inspires a major life review followed with a commitment to change.
I recall thinking several times over this last year that if it was God’s will for me to live, that I promised I would not allow myself to NOT be changed by it. I wanted to take full advantage of what had been stirred up within me. I would not stay the same. In fact, I realized that if I came out on the other side unchanged or unaltered on multiple levels, that I would be wasting a huge opportunity.
When in pain (physical, emotional, mental, spiritual) or even facing death or a major loss or life transition, many people re-commit to being a steward to something vitally important—and relevant—to their purpose, and its unique expression. For me, nine months confined to bed, completely dependent on others for what most people take for granted and a not so certain, painfully back and forth few months of recovery has only strengthened my resolve.
I had faced the possibility of leaving the planet with so much unshared and undone. In that moment, as surprising as it may sound I was not afraid of dying. I was afraid of dying with something inside of me (or in some file on my computer). In the weeks following, I also became painfully aware of how much I have devalued my worth and in doing so, I have inadvertently reinforced lack in others and devalued God and the gifts given to me so generously; clearly for a purpose way beyond the smallness of my life.
I witness people just like me; good, decent, gifted people with a passion to serve, denying their gifts and shutting themselves down (and cutting themselves off from Source) every single day. I see the insidious way we can feel victimized by life, only to find that we have been the primary perpetrators of our own pain. I see brilliant ideas dismissed as impossible and breath- taking talents never being shared to the level that I am sure they were meant to be shared. Not only are these some of the most profound ways we cut ourselves off from our Source, they are ways we withhold love, energy and goodness from others.
Now, I know I can be quite hard on myself. After all, I am my favorite person to blame for just about everything, ever since I was a little girl. And, this is different. This is about taking a greater level of personal responsibility for every single thing in my life because it has all been created with either my direct involvement or my permission.
I just can’t mess around anymore with any dramas or distractions. I don’t want to waste any time…or energy on anything that is not truly mine to be or do. I realize that this will impact my work in the world and what I am guided to make as a priority, such as completing several books and working with committed healing clients and soul based entrepreneurs.
It may sound like an illness induced mid-life crisis or something. It is not. It is a radical, re-alteration of consciousness that I sense is attempting to happen within the minds, hearts, spirits, and behaviors of humanity as a whole. What I experienced is just the tip of the proverbial iceberg. Most people are feeling a low level agitation that is often inaccurately sensed and connected to a tired old pattern, as opposed to it being associated with a new and often intense energy and consciousness that is attempting to elevate us in our totality.
When this happens we often unconsciously resist being altered by kicking up old patterns and issues. It is a brilliant way the ego interferes with healing, growth and breaking through the barriers of our own justified excuses for not changing or moving forward. And, it is so hindering to the imagination of the Soul being received by the personality.
I have been humbled and endlessly inspired by several clients who are approaching their lives with incredible courage, willingness and devotion. Over the weekend I received a few letters describing incredible healings (medically documented) and exciting progress on key projects in their businesses.
This is why I am so excited to see which Soul Biz owners take the next BIG LEAP (beginning Thursday at www.powerofmyway.com/bigleap.html ) and it is why I am also sharing an invitation for those motivated to connect with me and explore working together one-on-one.
Even if you are not called to develop a more personal relationship with me, I encourage you to tap into the resources we have continued to make available to you at www.powerofmyway.com/healingdownload.html and www.powerofmyway.com/sundaysoul.html
***IMPORTANT! Yesterday I was asked to re-activate a special, unadvertised package of 4 healing or coaching sessions. It is not found on the website but I will share it with those who personally connect with me in the next week and request it!
Be the change you seek, give more of what you desire and take responsibility for your own shift...no one else can!
In the meantime...Imagine a NEW REALITY...